When you love to cook and create great meals, you spend a lot of time looking for just the right recipe, the one that will create not just a good meal, but the PERFECT meal. A meal that everyone will enjoy and find to be delicious, satisfying, and filling. There is only one problem with that, not everyone has the same tastes and you cannot please everyone. So instead of trying to find the one perfect recipe, it's better to find the person that will love what you make, because it is made with love. Someone that will see the effort and thought behind it, not just the outcome. Because, let's face it, sometimes the outcome sucks! Some things are over done and tough, or bland and tasteless. Sometimes things are done in a rush without much thought and the outcome is nothing like you had planned and turns into a total fiasco. You search for someone to love you anyway, even when you do burn the dinner, or forget to start it, or it's late. Someone who will love you when you do things without thought and create a bigger mess then you started with. Someone that has seen the messes you have made in the past, but loves you anyway, because of them, not in spite of them. A person that will help clean up the messes, that will throw the garbage and wreckage away and never speak of it again. We all have those...messes, mistakes, wreckage, and garbage. The search is not for perfect, but for the one that will love you because you are not. Because the messes and garbage of our past has made us who we are now, better than we were, but not as good as we can be. We need that person that will love us anyway and help us to be as good as we can be. Because it is so much easier to become a better person when someone loves you as you are now and only sees the efforts you make, the good thoughts behind the bad actions and garbage. When they trust that no harm is meant, just sometimes thoughtless actions seem to be on purpose. I never mean to burn the dinner, sometimes I just don't think, I become selfish and wrapped up in my own needs and forget to see that a burned dinner means the one I love goes hungry. I never want that to happen, but sometimes it does. I don't know how to fix it, I just hope that he can see that it was not on purpose, it was not done with malice, and all I can do is hope he will let me try again. I promise to pay more attention and I will try not to burn it, but that is all I can do, try. I will fail again, I will make a mess again, I can only hope that he will forgive me for my failings and know that I love him anyway.
